.:Walled:.

Dunno how to express this...been feeling rather hapless. So very hapless. what will you guys do if you're me? Put yourself in my shoes instead, a 20 something single female who thought she's having an unknown dilemma. Mysterious and loads of grey areas in her life now. How can she explain that to even herself? How can she untangle her curiousities without provoking others, she might even being misunderstood? How can she's convince she's safe? How can she really convince that what she's having is for real? How can she feels secure with something when other things happen just the opposite of what she thought she's having? How? Why? argghh!!! I feel like running away. far far away....maybe that's the right thing to do now. I want to be disconnected from everything, everyone. Just let me be by myself. Just let me be in this deep sleep, deep in the matrix. Don't bother to wake me up, as I am a total fool.