Why I Love Modjo?

His *younger* version

{listening to his songs over and over again}

myheart - heart

First song that he sang and played guitar for yours truly (in love)

Ahh.. Modjo~@!

Mentioning his name in my heart and my mind echoes strongly in my very veins; hitting every wall of nerves in me; awaken every nucleus and senses that I have; to feel that he is for real. He existed all this while waiting for me...

Modjo is so special. He is my *all listed man* that I have never thought existed. He is rare. He is a kind of man who is nearing extinction. How could the man that I want (that I enlisted all the specs and kept more than 8 years ago) after my broken relationship with AAS ever existed? Well last time I thought that man only existed in the Europe or US. I name that list as THE MAN WHO NEVER HAVE EXISTED (MWNHE) but I have never thought he exists in KL, just nearby Rumah Cik Intan?

Well, somehow or rather people did say things like, be careful of what you wished for cos you might get it? I believe this is so true in my case. I enlisted

*Manja & sensitif*

too. So, there you go. I wished for my man to be just that 'cause I love to pamper my man and being pampered in return. I put sensitive too cause he will definitely know my inner thoughts and what I want, how I feel. But boy! He is good, baby! He's so sweet that he knows exactly how I want it or what I want or think. He still keeps his promises to some No-Go areas that I've said to him. He even asked for my opinion and permission (yes permission!!) to some stuff. So I emulate him to do the same. He's subconciously teaching me to be a good obedient wife (insyaAllah one day, amin).

Modjo is the love of my life. The one that I've tried to seek unconciously after my first heartbreak with AAS without realising that I did more damages (sometimes extreme damages, heart, body and soul) to myself and other people (my ex-es) in between. I know friends and families alike are curious in my love relationship development. I know you guys love me (or hate me so much maybe?) so much and hate (or love?) to see me going through that excruciating pain again and again (for 8 god damn years!). What I need from you guys now is your most sincerest prayer that I finally found The One and may both of us tie the knot, insyaAllah.

Modjo is so special. He is not anyone that I've known before. He is above par even when compared to the PhD holder AAS. Nope, he is 1000 light years better than anyone I've met and known before (InsyaAllah so far and in the future, insyaAllah)

And you ask me again, how come I can fall in love with Modjo so fast after that Bintulu guy ?
How on earth can I miss Modjo so much every single day?

I believe that Allah is answering my never ending prayers for all these years. After all, soul mate comes from Him. He made me meet and love Modjo just as He made me work with the company now. He made me Modjo just like I'm made for him. (I don't care if you might say I'm poyo now! The most important part was, Modjo was the one who wooed me persistently and patiently). Finally a man who can comprehend my temperamental climate, my ambitions, my wants and my needs, and me who can accept him as who he is. InsyaAllah I pray that this relationship will be the last one for both of us.

Ya Allah~@! Alhamdulillah, syukran Ya Allah.
May You bless us by consenting us to marry each other with Your rahmah (and as soon as possible to avoid fitnah and maksiat). May You bless us with more rezeki and happiness.

Cause both of us, Modjo & Moi have walked down this road far too long. It's time to get home to be with each other...

p/s: Does love ever need a time frame/ duration? In fact it needs a lifetime to learn about each other. That's why I surrender everything to Allah for Him to carve the path for me.