+..He BREAKS my SPIRIT..+

[..Emotional Love Song..]

Allah BREAKS my spirit to save my soul.
He breaks my heart to make me whole.
He sends me pain so I can be of strength
He sends me failures so I can be humble
He sends me illness so I can take care of myself

Sometimes,
Allah takes E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G away from me
so I can learn the value of everything He gave me...

Allah is Great!
Allah has tested me, He gave me YOU
But the fact that He taught me that loving human is temporary
and

He teaches me patience, selflessness and sacrificing my own needs
He WANTS me to COME BACK to HIM and to forgive others
He gave me LOVE
- but the love that filled with hurdles and challenges that mere human thinks as impossible to do

He makes me appreciates what I have and that everything was lent to me,
including YOU

I have to redha, be contented on what had happened to me
If He says that you are my jodoh, HE will make it happen even how hard we try to evade each other
If you are not for me in this temporary Matrix World and Hereafter, maybe He still have The Best for me.

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for giving me this test. Alhamdulillah for making me closer to you, and loving you more each day. Only ALLah and Rasullulah (besides my parents lah kan) loves me unconditionally, regardless of who I am. Only Allah and Rasullullah loves me in infinite value. So who am I to deny the Greatest Love of ALL? Who am I to question whatever Allah gives me now?

Allahu'alam.

[Ending my entry today with Aku Bukan Untukmu by Rossa]

Signing Off

[bidadari kesunyian]
-Ironically this thing was sent to Boe in January 08-
[15 Mac 2008 - 24 April 2008]