Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream
~Mark Twain~
Today I have ample time to write in length..
Well I don’t really write my true intentions and my feelings. Na-ah, not tru the internet as it is made pubLic. Special occasions and going ons are written in that recycled-brownish journal that i keep and been loyally written for more years than i could remember..
For me, 2004 has been a hectic year and i can imagined it to be continued til late. As work has never ceased to be challenging and amusing, lately it has been more than I could sponged. With only a brain, two hands, phone calls in between and hundreds of emails and meetings, I do have a limited time and with a new boss that keeps on membebel (nagging) and looks so kelam kabut, not to mentioned *blur* about some things. How I wish I could tell her, "come on! we need a break, can you stop freaking us all out?" But out of respect (and my PDA, of course), I just keep on doing what the other committee expects me to accomplish. Yeah you guess, most of my writings came from deep inspiration late at night when everyone has their eyes rapidly moved inconciously (REM - haven't you read about it?) as they were dreaming and dozzing off. Today, as what *alone and coffee and amir experienced, i have ample time to buzz around and made some noises..ehehe sorry you guys!
Since my somber Taurus bday last year and few months afterwards, I've been facing difficulties, one after another. Keep reminding myself that God is testing my Iman and taht test is meant for me (as God only test us for He knows our strength and endurances), so be patience. The strength left, is the only motivation to move on and smile..makes my life busy again by doing things i love like jungle trekking and mount climbing (alhamdulillah, this came right on the dot during my difficulties, tru a long lost friend, and voila! a new chapter of life!). It hurts but life goes on. Still remembering Along for his guidance in Tmn Negara and he being able to predict what was in my head during our trekking-ditto! There might be *something* far better than what was transpired. That awaits me at the end of my limped walk. Sutun and Niza once said they envied my strength and my coolness. How on earth I managed to pull myself together again.....only God knows. In flowing watery (such word, eh?) eyes, all I did was asking Him to give me more strength, blessed me and show me the road i'm travelling...
Truly, I tried and i've given my all. I tried to believe that things will work.
But it didn’t. How i reacted? deep down all the motivations, all the feel good auras and all that confidences been flushed down the drain. Yes, I was frustrated, deeply sad and perhaps angry to myself. Sutun said I'm too trusting and too soft to make believe. I'm fragile..yes, even how tough or how athletic, and how confident a woman can be, yet when it comes to that *heart* department, i break so easily.
For all that sorrows and hurts, I can still smile and said, its ok! it was destined to be this way, it's just that man can only proposes but God disposes. Deep down, once beaten twice shy, I will get over this, I always do and besides I have friends who never failed to cheer me up. When God closes the door (in my case it has been more than once) somewhere, somehow He opens another window. He wants me to take a peek, and who knows I might find the things that Ive been looking for, without realising someone out there is also looking for me...
Its clocking almost 2 pm, I haven’t took my lunch since I've downed a heavy breakfast this morning (alone's friend's famous). I'll try to write something over the weekend or perhaps when I get back home sweet home. My friends are planning to go to Batu Pahat for our hiking friend's wedding. Last week, my staff wedded his two year fiancé. So, now I'm the ONLY CMBD staff who is single and not really available...hmm. Jokingly, she said "since you're the last CMBD who (God's willing!) will marry, then the wedding gift shall be enormous! Yeah, joke aside, but been monologue again, "will I find my other halves? The one I can call my significant other?" hmm...Being a working an experienced woman, trust me, it's not easy to find your soul mate. Not as easy as you were in your teenage era...or not as easy when you were in your early 20s. For me, there will be no hanky pankies...to me, when the fire in my heart finally sparks; he'll definitely a candidate for a spouse.
It’s been a hectic week(s- mind ya!) for me. It's time to kick off that shoes and lay back as what I need is a good rest and to be surrounded by loved ones, yup..family and friends. Surely all this supplement of good auras will help me to elevate my spirit again perhaps to a higher flight.
By the way, my lil sis just celebrated her 13th bday on August 24. Happy Bday, love! All in all, I miss her growing up, as those empty spaces between us I was away for furthering my studies and again separated by the South China Sea. Then, when you realise you miss "playing" with her, talking to her, it's already too late! She has friends of her own and her own world now. To Fiqa, I love you with all my heart...and May Allah blesses you with love and the entire world for you!
Till we meet again next week with more news (really, news?) and more stories.
For Sutun and Abg H, I pray for your happiness! I pray for your success and I pray that both of you be blessed with rezeki from the ONLY ONE...
For those who touches my heart when I'm feeling down and weary, there's always a place for *you* in my heart and arigato gozaimas for the wonderful friendship that we have shared as God has made our path crossed and destined to be that way. YOU are the reason why I'm a chirping bird again. I treasure all the memories, the moment, the laughter and the sadness we shared...thank you!
Till then...
tenga un fin de semana maravilloso
avoir un bon weekend!
Inspired by Amir's What's a Perfect Marriage.... Scientifically???
Well I don’t really write my true intentions and my feelings. Na-ah, not tru the internet as it is made pubLic. Special occasions and going ons are written in that recycled-brownish journal that i keep and been loyally written for more years than i could remember..
For me, 2004 has been a hectic year and i can imagined it to be continued til late. As work has never ceased to be challenging and amusing, lately it has been more than I could sponged. With only a brain, two hands, phone calls in between and hundreds of emails and meetings, I do have a limited time and with a new boss that keeps on membebel (nagging) and looks so kelam kabut, not to mentioned *blur* about some things. How I wish I could tell her, "come on! we need a break, can you stop freaking us all out?" But out of respect (and my PDA, of course), I just keep on doing what the other committee expects me to accomplish. Yeah you guess, most of my writings came from deep inspiration late at night when everyone has their eyes rapidly moved inconciously (REM - haven't you read about it?) as they were dreaming and dozzing off. Today, as what *alone and coffee and amir experienced, i have ample time to buzz around and made some noises..ehehe sorry you guys!
Since my somber Taurus bday last year and few months afterwards, I've been facing difficulties, one after another. Keep reminding myself that God is testing my Iman and taht test is meant for me (as God only test us for He knows our strength and endurances), so be patience. The strength left, is the only motivation to move on and smile..makes my life busy again by doing things i love like jungle trekking and mount climbing (alhamdulillah, this came right on the dot during my difficulties, tru a long lost friend, and voila! a new chapter of life!). It hurts but life goes on. Still remembering Along for his guidance in Tmn Negara and he being able to predict what was in my head during our trekking-ditto! There might be *something* far better than what was transpired. That awaits me at the end of my limped walk. Sutun and Niza once said they envied my strength and my coolness. How on earth I managed to pull myself together again.....only God knows. In flowing watery (such word, eh?) eyes, all I did was asking Him to give me more strength, blessed me and show me the road i'm travelling...
Truly, I tried and i've given my all. I tried to believe that things will work.
But it didn’t. How i reacted? deep down all the motivations, all the feel good auras and all that confidences been flushed down the drain. Yes, I was frustrated, deeply sad and perhaps angry to myself. Sutun said I'm too trusting and too soft to make believe. I'm fragile..yes, even how tough or how athletic, and how confident a woman can be, yet when it comes to that *heart* department, i break so easily.
For all that sorrows and hurts, I can still smile and said, its ok! it was destined to be this way, it's just that man can only proposes but God disposes. Deep down, once beaten twice shy, I will get over this, I always do and besides I have friends who never failed to cheer me up. When God closes the door (in my case it has been more than once) somewhere, somehow He opens another window. He wants me to take a peek, and who knows I might find the things that Ive been looking for, without realising someone out there is also looking for me...
Its clocking almost 2 pm, I haven’t took my lunch since I've downed a heavy breakfast this morning (alone's friend's famous). I'll try to write something over the weekend or perhaps when I get back home sweet home. My friends are planning to go to Batu Pahat for our hiking friend's wedding. Last week, my staff wedded his two year fiancé. So, now I'm the ONLY CMBD staff who is single and not really available...hmm. Jokingly, she said "since you're the last CMBD who (God's willing!) will marry, then the wedding gift shall be enormous! Yeah, joke aside, but been monologue again, "will I find my other halves? The one I can call my significant other?" hmm...Being a working an experienced woman, trust me, it's not easy to find your soul mate. Not as easy as you were in your teenage era...or not as easy when you were in your early 20s. For me, there will be no hanky pankies...to me, when the fire in my heart finally sparks; he'll definitely a candidate for a spouse.
It’s been a hectic week(s- mind ya!) for me. It's time to kick off that shoes and lay back as what I need is a good rest and to be surrounded by loved ones, yup..family and friends. Surely all this supplement of good auras will help me to elevate my spirit again perhaps to a higher flight.
By the way, my lil sis just celebrated her 13th bday on August 24. Happy Bday, love! All in all, I miss her growing up, as those empty spaces between us I was away for furthering my studies and again separated by the South China Sea. Then, when you realise you miss "playing" with her, talking to her, it's already too late! She has friends of her own and her own world now. To Fiqa, I love you with all my heart...and May Allah blesses you with love and the entire world for you!
Till we meet again next week with more news (really, news?) and more stories.
For Sutun and Abg H, I pray for your happiness! I pray for your success and I pray that both of you be blessed with rezeki from the ONLY ONE...
For those who touches my heart when I'm feeling down and weary, there's always a place for *you* in my heart and arigato gozaimas for the wonderful friendship that we have shared as God has made our path crossed and destined to be that way. YOU are the reason why I'm a chirping bird again. I treasure all the memories, the moment, the laughter and the sadness we shared...thank you!
Till then...
tenga un fin de semana maravilloso
avoir un bon weekend!
Inspired by Amir's What's a Perfect Marriage.... Scientifically???
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