.::Sheer Determination::.

InsyaAlLah, I will achieve my target by second quarter 2006. I'm determine to clean my financial *itches* by jumping on what they're offering me now. yeah use that for your own benefits. Plan. and strictly adheres to your own *rules*. The hardest part now is my own rules. uhuhu....how can a woman survives without that *need* to shop those glittering and bling bling shoes n stuff? And yeah those beautiful even gurlish dress/work shirts, make ups, spa, facial treatment, vitamins, those social obligations like movies, get-together, cuppa coffee, streamyx (which is on its way now), favourite chic lits n stuff, how can one denies a good friend's invitation to do meals together? uwaaaaaaaaaa!! how can I survived all these torments of undoing my favourite hobby? uhuhuhu...help. help.

Oh! Sod it. come to think of it, it's for my own betterment of life. InsyaAllah if I achieve this, i can move on to my next life.

A. Upgrade to my *achievable* dream car?

B. Buy a house (for investment) or

C. Get Married.

You see, I'm not from a private company that boost their employees' morale by giving out fat bonuses. No. I'm from a *ghostly* company which neither private nor public. At least public servant had 2 months bonus for God's sake. Arghh...I'm green with envy. If that ever transpires, I could at least cover my *hobby* in less than a year. Heck! I'll pay all of it if I must! But no-oooo. I'm stuck with just my monthly salary. low wages but alhamdulillah. i can still pay for my bills, my car installments (another story - its interest is damn high!), a bit of a social obligation and no monthly saving. can you believe that? No saving? uwaaaaaaaa~@! Lucky they put aside my EPF, Socso and insurance. If not I will die poor. Totally.

So, ladies and gents.

May AlLah grants my wish to be broke-free come 2006. then May AlLah grants my wish to settle down .