.:Difficult Decision:.

Its difficult to assess my current situation now. I guess man always have the upper hand of making decisions. i, on the other hand will always make sure that a man is really worth *everything*. Afterall, you'll only married once (if you lucky more - for a man: huh! typical).

Man who talks can't always be trusted too easily. If we say nay, they will always says we're not being kind and understanding and that they need us bladibla. Do they? Am i wrong to not be too trusting? Heck! lesson learnt if you are downright honest and sincere, prove your innocence la, kan. Its a pity you are guilty until proven otherwise. How am I going to trust a man if the acts keep on contradicting and not-so-straightforward? Until he *REALLY* sincere and *HONEST* to see my family and make necessary arrangements? hey! have you guys heard that even that's the case, the man can *always* leave minutes before his marriage. Remember what happened to that Kedah footballer with that Johor gal? So when does this trust ever materialise? How? ya Allah, please save me from that kinda man, ya Allah! How?!!

One who ever gained my 150% is still *him*. He opened my eyes on a guy's point of view. He taught me of being a woman and to treat her man right. *He* did things and showed how he really love me by doing something above self. this guy however are not someone i can really end up with without any complications and bigger problems. this guy will always be in my prayers for all his love to me, only God can repay that. Aminn. Maybe its right to love a man who loves me. Not the other way around. It's wiser that way.

So, that leaves me of throwing the dice and says eeny meeny minee mo? Gamble everything and take every risk of being stupid again. I WAS STUPID. So, shall I or shan't I? After all men loves bimbos, gullible gals who believe *everything* that her man says (noted her man - not the man's gal). This type of gals can easily being swooped by her feet by their so-called smarter husbands. go figure why? Maybe somehow deep down this career gal's heart, she wished she can be STUPID. But hey! NOT!!!...