::Prologue::

I wonder why I blog at the first place?

It started way back in myspace and it was meant for fun on the happenings and feelings, as I didn't have anybody to turn to at that time. It has been my way of *communicating* things. Last time we only did in a secret diary. Well, I still have and still write my deepest secrets, innermost feelings and emotions, my monologues, all the 4Ws and 1H.

Blog is not something that you can write everything. No-way, sir. Not a place for people to do libels or simply an avenue for total freedom of speech and expression to what you belief in, especially when comes to things that we ought to feel as a stigma, a thing that we Eastern people belief as a taboo. Like that Singaporean gal did on her own blog to expose her body and write sultry things she did, or like Ayah Pin's follower to *say* his views while disabling the comments section. Coward? Up to you...

I simply blog because I want to write, express on certain things and to tell others my experiences and what I've learnt. But the actual person involved were never mentioned. Nasiblah kan if that person happened to read my blog, as the saying goes," Siapa yang makan cili dia yang rasa pedas".

I guess, I'll be writing actively again since I have no longer that special someone. Even Elly in Mencari Cinta said last nite, that if a woman feels she is close to someone ( a male, definitely), she will talk to him on the going-ons and how she feels and what she does, that kinda things. that constant communication. the feelings that you've been thought of. yeah, I sickly miss that.

We do have best friends, mind you. But it's still not the same when a woman falls in love. Nope. Women tends to side either her best friends or her lover. In this case, when a woman's in love, she will leave her friends behind. You will automatically know your best friend is out of love when she always spent her time with you. ehehe happens all the time. *wink*. That's normal.

I'm grateful to AlLah when He showed me things. I'm grateful to my parents for setting standards on finding the significant other and how to keep it in harmony. They show me how to live with your other half...They are always my lifetime Idols. I'm always grateful I have real friends to do things together, always have their backs and always there to bring me back to reality. heck! what are friends for kan? I love all of them.

For me, I don't want to waste my time and energy. Friends are friends if that was clearly the intention from the beginning. No hanky-panky and no more flirtings. That was so yesterday. I stated this time and time again. Deep down, I don't care less on what people say, or what they think anymore. Can I just be happy?