::Excuse Me::

It's hard to please everybody isn't it? You *had* to do something because it was shoved to your face without you being able to say anything. Then, from there you felt you can do it because you thought it was something new and different. It was suppose to be a team's work, the whole process from start to finish from a-z, from top to bottom...and i thought my team was a strong one. But man only proposes, God disposes. That was what happened to me.

But now, everybody else said that as if *you* were the one at fault cos you *lack* that *quality* in you. They said things as if you were invisible. Like hello! No offense, but I have feelings too! And helloooo! If you hasten things on your part, won't it be easier and hasten things on my part too? This was what teamwork's all about? Only stupid people would turn to deaf ears with that kind of remarks. Huh! I learnt my lesson already. Don't take things that was shoved to your face just because they don't think they can do it either...

Probably it was my fault at the first place cos I can't say no and thought that I can handle things. Along the way, unsuspected things came...things which people won't simply believe what you said or at least trying to say becos they don't really know *you*, how you work, what you do, yelah...I don't brag on it anyway? Maybe that's why I never succeed in those MLM thingies. and I hate doing all those administrative stuff. Blearghh! That's why I still haven't make any claims pertaining to my work for the last 9 months! Yes, including my clinical bills. Padanla aku terasa miskin je...huehue

Memang I don't feel good about this. Infact it made me menyampah on doing things. I hate doing things which was forced. I hate people to ask me to do things which they were suppose to do, "cos I think you're good at this..." just because they don't want to take responsibilities. How about MY OWN FARKING WORK?

well, put that aside...I give up doing things which I don't really have soul or at least believe in. I better concentrate on my sports event or camping or my workloads which are already too heavy a burden.

At least there's a soul out there who can see right thru me. Who already foresaw what I was doing. One who already argued on things to come. Ehehehe...But me being me kan...degil lagi keras kepala...whoops! Don't tell me, "I already told you so.."