.::succumb to nothingness::.

nothing. just plain e.m.p.t.y. and that's how i feel. alone and empty. sometime it makes me crazy, i think i'm going permanently crazy. loss somehow. yes. loss, the correct word to describe this nothingness. in a crowd of people but in fact in loneliness...without anyone to share the half side of me. where there are many more fortunate and unfortunate people around me, i'm always in the middle. i'm always neither *here* nor *there*. dying is a definite answer to my nothingness.