Mungkinkah
Bila ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Dan bila ku mula merasa
Bahasa kesunyian
Salahkah aku yang berjalan
Dalam kehampaan
Terdiam, terpana, terbata
Semua dalam keraguan
Aku dan semua
Yang terluka karena kita
Aku kan menghilang
Dalam pekat malam
Lepas ku melayang
Biarlah ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Tentang arti kita
Dalam mimpi yang sempurna
Aku dan semua
Yang terluka karena
Kita
I love this song's lyric. A song that i think appropriate for me at this time. still, the question remains whether i can survive this torment of moving forward without *him*. A question on whether other man can love me like he does. i believe everyone is unique, and thus i asked him to let me fly and give another man a chance to know me and later, love me. How patient one is to be with me, that falls second. As *he* said, " I'm worried if nobody can love you like i do, worried if they treat you wrongly, because you are always precious to me ".
I believe men can easily fall in love with me, but it's hard for them to sustain the feeling and love me for what i am - the dark and bad side of me. what i've learnt from *him* is the new meaning of loving and being loved. i'm not sure of whether i can fly alone. friends are encircling me...but they can never know how i feel...they can only show empathy but they can never understand *our* situation. they will say how stubborn and stupid i am. but do they really know me well enough? the only answer for this is within me, and let AlLah guide me for what ever path i choose.
i let nature takes it's course. let time decides. if anybody is destined to be my husband and let be. for all my life, i've dreamt of having cute and healthy kids. a family of my own. i love kids. but man can only proposes, God disposes. ..
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