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today nuthin interesting happened..

i can't concentrate on work as the week of the month finally arrived and the lots are busy with the family day preparation....aku ni ha stuck..minggu depan ade meeting and cuti due hari (saje nak amik IC baru), Boss dah sound suh pi address president tu..adesss takkan dia approve cuti suspek aku gi dari kepong - ucapan tu kots..ape alasan nak kasik eks..dahla nak kena amik IC and nak servis keta..kalau sempat (bgn tido) aku pegilah kots...

ari ni, bagi lagu yg korang dengar ni kat sayapdewa..lagu ni Taj Innuendo kasik..skali ngan CD dier..i really appreciate this collection, love it! wonder how he's doing? agaknye Amir eTc tau kots..windu plaks ehehe. after a painful game mane taknye, peok (sayap ckp ni) pun nak main gaks..adess cakit pewot...amik sayap, mintak tolong cover for adik angkat ako..so dat aku ade excuse balik awal..tatak lalat nak stay lelama dengau citer dier..kang silap2 dia ajak pi memana adesss..sibbaik ade penyelamat...arigato gozaimas...kopi tuy really helps...dah lega pewot nih. mate butterfly pun dah siap..cume tinggal remeh2 je..arigato skali lagi..merci boucoup...toce sai..

besok rabu, then khamis ade training on legal awareness adesss busan giler gwe..kalau aku leh bwk laptop skali pun ok kan..then mewireless - broadbandkan..so aku surf jadik road warrior (term ni byk kat US or europe for ppl on the go cam aku...tapi aku ni on the gostan kots)
terbaca pasal Amir eTc tuLis kat blog dier...pasal kill in the name of love...pasal bapak yg sayangkan anak die...pasal Norzy, pasal Uncle don...bayangkan! aku dahla doks sengsorang..so imagine..how freaky that news to me...so every nite aku make sure sumer tingkap (even my bilik air) shut close...hisk..tapi even that happened to a grilled and heavy locked houses pun...hisk..nau'zubillah..tatotttt!!!

hopefully nothin happened to moi...dats why my intention to settle down are stronger..yep..i admit even me being independent pun needs a guy as my err..my ape eks...saviour..knight of shining armour. hmmmh..a significant other..a partner..

yep dapat msg and email from someone...and i'm a bit mad...cos mebbe dah mood swing sbb peok kots..so aku jwb pun in english and then try to ignore. something about "kosong"..sorry to ignore your msg and email but i was seriously not in the mood..especially when ppl assume me of being too angry, "empty"..and as if i can't express my own feeling?

i have feelings...i have my own way of expressing..not verbally, not physically...but something that i can write down...so dat in future i can mirror what i did..i can look back and say," hey, that was yesterday, today, i'm a better person" i have my right...sorry i say this but er...to the extent of controlling one's freedom of expression, that's so wrong man..if one really knows me, yeah...but not everyone and i don't think i wanna elaborate further..the same goes to RH..who can't truly understand me...yep..as i said i don't feel "empty". i see a half glass of water...but not the other way around...my heart is dead for dat mushy thingy..

why can't one accept that we can have other gender as best friends? why must that long face? why must if one makes friends, must end up as lovers? i simply can't accept...so, here i am..being alone but not lonely, an extrovert and cheerful me, but only God knows...how can i find somebody who has already benchmarked the highest position in my heart before? so nothing else, nothing less..i'm still me...sorry if being *myself* annoyed you...it's just me...