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Ades kepala rasa macam span pulak. Jadik cam SpongeBob Square pants. Asek serap info jek..

Thanks to adik aku yg serba pervert si Efi tu, aku dapat baca buku tulisan Mario Puzo. Ngam seh buku nih! Aku suka. And aku imagine berada di suasana 30an..Sempat lagi baca lepas habis study bab Company aku since dia dikorporatkan in 1996. Tu yg kepala rasa span hebat tuh... bah!

I just finished sitting for my (insyaALlah) promotion exams yesterday (Monday). It was divided to two sessions; the General One which comes from the company's Group HRA (which spelled disaster for moi) and the Functional One (which was what I do) in the afternoon was all sugar and cream.

I've been studying like madman starting Sunday nite as I was committed to help PEYATIM in their JATIDIRI program. Maklumle kan...company aku ni selalunya bagitahu benda-benda penting macam exam aku tu last minit. Nasib baik jugaklah Azam the Head Committee agreed to let me go that Saturday night just after supporting my adik2 Satria - Adi, Ibrahim, Fazly, Izham si kecik yg gelak dia ada karakter, Mustakim yg bulu mata melentik, Hidayat yg ada leadership trait n suka tolong org lain, IrwanSyah bukan penyanyi but pemalu banget, ckp dekat pun aku tak dengar and geng baik dia, Khudri pun sama cam dia. Then adik2 puteriku, Syela and Amra.

My adik2 are special people. They're orphans picked from different orphanage houses in Klang Valley and Perak. Most of them came from under privilege families, where their siblings can be up to 11 people. Definisi Anak Yatim ni ialah when the Father dies. Mati mak je, bukan anak yatim. Tapi if dedua meninggal, baru namanye anak yatim piatu.

Ada sesetengah anak yatim ni, mak dia pun tak sedar if diorang pegi sekolah ke tak. Sebabnya, pagi buta sebok buat nasi lemak or buat keje. So, pepandailah diorang sendirilah nak gi sekolah ke tak. Memang a bit difficult to approach these special kids sebabnya, they were mostly inhibited. Very very low self esteem and the very the SHY!!

But alhamdulillah about 32 hours with them, they started to open up. I've been briefed by Tn. Hj Chairman Peyatim that these kids crave for attention. They will try all sorts of things for us to layan them, which is true. Well, in the end (during my last night with them) all of us seek forgiveness from each other, terasa sedih pulak masa tu. But according to Fariz one of the committee, they were strong inside cos they have experienced the most bitter event of their life, losing their parents and never get to see them again...All else lepas ni, definitely mcm gula-gula je kot? So they never cried towards the end of JATIDIRI Program. Kagum aku dengan diorang ni.

Actually being with them teaches me a lot of things. They were so pure. They even teaches me about Islam, about being a khalif, about being selfless, about loving other people unconditionally. They are not afraid, they are strong mentally. What I did was minicule compared to what they taught me. I was there as a facilitator in between programs and provoke them to open up. thats all. Aku rasa dengan mengenali adik2 aku adalah cara untuk aku mengenal AlLah. Entah aku rasa macam tulah...

I guess I've missed all my adik2. Adi, adik aku yg aku ingat kerek tu, and mengaku tak pandai kat kelas is actually one of SMKTTDI star students. Ibrahim pulak aspires to be a doctor. He taught me how to terjun tiruk dekat air terjun but i chicken out. gilo apo? tak berani aku nak gimnastik umor aku camnih. hisk...

Then Mus, Amra n Syela aku ingat penakut nak buat flying fox, but actually they were braver than me...ehehe aku ni pandai provoke je lebih, tapi penakut kat dalam tuh...hahahah. Mustakim pulak sangat sopan and gentleman. Fazly pulak pandai bersajak tapi taknak mengaku wakil sekolah...humble betul, itupun aku tahu dari Syela masa aku ajak makan Milo blended reramai. Si Izham pulak, sangat kreatif walaupun paling kecik, 12 tahun. He gave so many ideas...and practical pulak tu!

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That was why I studied like madman. On Sunday morning, I had an important meeting with my boss til afternoon. Then lepas tu, buat itu dan ini sampai lebam, malam tu baru boleh study. Gilo betol. Banyak benda nak cover under HQ nih.

Aku rasa until now jadik retard sebab still a lot of things are going on in my head. I hope I can have Peter Petrelli's ( ni pada sesapa yg ardent fan of HEROES) power. He can absorb other superheroes power and then learn to control it.

Hahaha tapi aku ni manusia biasa je. Banyak kelemahan. Banyak kekurangan dan kesengetan. Ada gak org salah tafsir diri aku. Tak mahu cuba nak faham and open mind. But eheheh itu orang lantaklah diorang kan. Umpatlah aku ehehhehe....insyaAllah aku dapat free je pahala. And aku doakan jugak orang-orang ini semua diampunkan dosa-dosa dari mengumpat aku. Nasib baik jugaklah ada sahabat-sahabat penyayang. Yang tahu aku cemana. Eheheh...Kepada mereka semoga sentiasa dilapangkan rezeki, diampunkan dosa, dan aku sayang korang sumer! mwahs!

Benarlah.

If you have ALLAH, you have it ALL!
terharu aku...
kecik beno aku nih