+..hopelessly in love..+

I've been trying to succeed in this department of life. Being in love. I have been in and out of relationships for so many times and yet i came across different personalities. How I love bio-diversity!

Still, men will always be men. Deep down they have this gene to do somewhat similar stuff regardless if they live across the borders, east and west, north and south. Sports, politics, chicks (err..)...you know the *usual* like what women do i.e. shopping, gossiping..ahahhaa, you know what I mean.

Even how machoism is in place with men, deep down they love pamperings, treat them like *King*, make them important like asking for their opinion or advice or stuff. But somehow they will never replace the importance of having your best girlfriend around. Your confidant cum counsellor. Someone who you can ask whether this pinstripe suit with this kinda style suits your red scarf around the neck?

Your best girlfriend(s) will become especially important when its time to show your *stronger other half*. Some sort of sisterhood ritual. If they say, "oohh both of you are pairs made in heaven!..." that means green light all the way from them. Permission granted for us to be in the relationship. (Syukran Jazillah for all of my friends - you know who you are)

Then, it used to be when your bf was not to their *approval*. Being a polite Asian people, we won't simply say things to offend your friends but with subtlety. "Erm..please don't bring your bf, it will bore him to the bone on our trivial girly fair" That means they hates him..eheheh been there done that. What they said did rang some bells. Sooner if not later that bf became an EX.

Maybe as what I've been through since my failed first ever true love (that time) made me choosy. As what he (my ex- lets call him X) had set becomes my benchmark to my choosing a serious stronger other half. In between (yes, i have those as well) was just to fill that lonely gap for movies and a short term relationship i.e. lunches, dinners, chatting thru the phone. I thought I will never found someone that will be on par with X and kept on pursuing to find The One.

God is Great. We are all adults now. So its a different love perspective when you are at my age. There's no hurried *lets-get-married* motto like in my mid twenties, but merely an unspoken goal. He will do the necessary when time comes.  If all else fails (God Forbid!) then I will never give up on it and start anew. Its not that I haven't tried, have I?